T.O.D.A.Y.

Today is the Day

My mind is racing at a faster pace than my heart. I don’t even know how to start. Maybe it’s the way we said goodbye, the way I’m now noticing every single lie. The whispers, and giggles all seem to be true, and now seeing the things that you taught me were all new. The question is, how can things so intimate come so quick, I’ve been with you from the very start. I’ve done all you’ve asked, and you’ve done it all. Not for me, and not for yourself but for a different we, an item too toxic for my twisted desires to see. Entertaining someone else’s time, confusing your misfortunes for mine. Why is it so hard to let go, let me leave, let me be happy with someone who wants me. I give you permission to laugh and smile, and think to yourself how you allowed it to last a while. The thing is you don’t know how many times I’ve wanted to go, how many times my bitter soul wouldn’t let me leave. Just know for my sake the memories are the reason for my current remains.