Smile

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thoughts gently asked 
thoughts gently reminded
the smile reappears

inch out..

will take a slow down 

and look around

there ain't no stopping, 

slow down well and 

inch out to present ..

"ശ്രീ "- ലക്ഷ്മി

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എന്റെ വിരലുകൾക്ക് ഭംഗിയില്ലാത്തതുകൊണ്ടാണോ എന്റെ എഴുത്തിനും ഭംഗിയില്ലാത്തത് ? ലക്ഷ്മിക്ക് സംശയമായി. അവൾ കൈപ്പത്തി മെല്ലെ ഉയർത്തി ഓരോ വിരലുകളായി നോക്കി.. വെളുത്തുനീണ്ടു മെലിഞ്ഞ വിരലുകൾ, വിരലിന്റെ അറ്റം അവളുടെ പുരികങ്ങൾപോലെ നെർത്തത് , നഖങ്ങൾ നന്നായി വെട്ടി മിനുസപ്പെടുത്തിയിരികുന്നു, ഇളം പിങ്ക് നിറമാണ് നഖങ്ങൾക്ക്. അറ്റം അല്പം വെളുത്തിരിക്കുന്നു, അവളുടെ കണ്ണുകൾപോലെ അവയ്ക്കും നല്ല തിളക്കമുണ്ട്...
അവൾ ഒരു പേനയെടുത്തു പിടിച്ചു നോക്കി..എഴുതും പോലെ ചലിപ്പിച്ചു..  രണ്ടാം തരത്തിൽ കണക്കു പഠിപ്പിച്ച ഗീത ടീച്ചർ പേന പിടിക്കുന്നതു ലക്ഷി ഓർത്തു, അതുപൊലിരിക്കുന്നു അവളുടെ വിരലുകൾ.
നല്ല ഭംഗിയാണ് ഗീത ടീച്ചറിന്റെ വിരലുകൾക്ക്, പീന്നെന്താ എന്റെ വിരലുകൾക്ക് ? നല്ല ഭംഗിയാണല്ലോ.. പിന്നെ എഴുത്തിനാണോ കുഴപ്പം? നല്ല ഭംഗിയുള്ള കൈയ്യക്ഷരമെന്നു തിരുമേനി പറയുകയും ചെയ്തല്ലോ.. ഗണപതിഹോമം നടത്തിയിട്ട് തിരുമേനി നുണ പറഞ്ഞതാണോ?... അത് മാതൃഭൂമിയിൽ അച്ചടിച്ചുവരികയും ചെയ്തു. അന്ന്  ലക്ഷ്മിക്ക് വല്ല്യ സന്തോഷം തോന്നിയ ദിവസമായിരുന്നു. ചിറ്റപ്പൻ നിർബന്ധിച്ചാണ്  അന്നത് അയച്ചു കൊടുത്തത്. എന്തായാലും മൊത്തത്തിൽ നല്ല അഭിപ്രായമാണ്. കയ്യിലെടുത്ത പേന നിലത്തു വയ്ക്കാതെ ലക്ഷ്മി ഒരു കടലാസ്സെടുത്ത് എഴുതി... "ശ്രീ "

world is upside down

world is upside down

There’s only one kind of love that can fill us up, make us whole, and give us the happiness we all want: unconditional love or true love. It is unconditional love that we all seek, and somehow we intuitively realize that anything other than that kind of love isn’t really love at all—it’s an imitation of the real thing.

“I think the biggest disease the world suffers from in this day and age is the disease of people feeling unloved. I know that I can give love for a minute, for half an hour, for a day, for a month, but I can give. I am very happy to do that, I want to do that.” Princess Diana

Love—everybody wants it but so many of us have trouble finding it. Or giving it. Or even knowing what it is.

As for knowing what love is, true love is one of those gifts that we know we have found by the way it makes us feel. Love enriches our lives, making us want to give even more because we are conscious of the intangible wealth we have received.

heartfelt tears

Welcome friends. I know the blog post has been heavy lately, and to those who have been so faithful in reading, thank you. But I want to make sure you know, it's not all tears. Life is beautiful. Joyful. Funny.

A dear friend of mine was telling me about a dream she had last night. That she dreamt and woke up with a drumful of tears and bitterness. But it was just a dream. Most people believe that real men never shed tears, not to mention crying. The very fact that they do laugh demands that they do the opposite when situations reverse. Some situations must milk tears even from the driest eye
When talking about the tears; you shed when your sins weigh heavily on you and consequently groan for mercy and forgiveness. All saints without exception must shed tears at some point.

T.O.D.A.Y.

Today is the Day

My mind is racing at a faster pace than my heart. I don’t even know how to start. Maybe it’s the way we said goodbye, the way I’m now noticing every single lie. The whispers, and giggles all seem to be true, and now seeing the things that you taught me were all new. The question is, how can things so intimate come so quick, I’ve been with you from the very start. I’ve done all you’ve asked, and you’ve done it all. Not for me, and not for yourself but for a different we, an item too toxic for my twisted desires to see. Entertaining someone else’s time, confusing your misfortunes for mine. Why is it so hard to let go, let me leave, let me be happy with someone who wants me. I give you permission to laugh and smile, and think to yourself how you allowed it to last a while. The thing is you don’t know how many times I’ve wanted to go, how many times my bitter soul wouldn’t let me leave. Just know for my sake the memories are the reason for my current remains.

Will someone make me happy?

At any moment in our lives, we can change our mindset and choose to be happy

All right, here’s the sitch, I haven’t blogged in a while and I’m not planning on it anymore. It has nothing to do with me not having fun because I’m having a good time. It’s because I was blogging in the beginning because I missed something/home and was unhappy. But I’m not anymore, in fact, I don’t want to go home!!

 Will someone make me happy?

No one can make you happy.  If you are waiting for someone to come along and fix your life, you are in for a huge disappointment.  There is no person who can “fix” you.  You are a human being with some strengths and some weaknesses but are not fixable by another human.
You need to work on yourself.
The best you can hope for is to find someone who really loves you.  Who is deeply flawed, but genuinely loves you, expresses that love by trying to be considerate of you in tangible ways, and is trying to improve, that is it. You need to work on you.  Just like you can work on your body with physical exercise, you need to work on your emotions, mind and soul.  The closer you get to being a complete person the closer you will be to finding happiness. The closer you are to being a complete person the more likely you are to be in a happy relationship (or to do what some people would call “find your soul mate”).  And get ready cause he/she will be a work in progress, just like you.

Still crazy after all these years!

This is just a blog of my random thoughts. This will be a collection of everything from my thoughts, to funny things I find on the net (including tweets and FB status) to whatever else I decide to post.We all have a story and random thoughts that swim through our heads; they are what shape us into who & where we are today.Do you go and find random FB posts and comment on them or are these people we know?

Still Crazy After All These Years..
I still remember the first time I saw Google from an internet cafe I started using the internet around 2000, which was the one that led to all the ones I use today – Firefox, Internet Explorer, Chrome, etc.

It was like a whole new world.

L.O.V.E. Redefined!

most customizable

Blooper- I am creating this blog post in order to understand myself...what I feel ...
I did not know what I was truly capable of till I started to love myself. In the earlier days of my venture;It is important when people can know of what is going on around them even if they find it hard to pick.Love is an interesting word in our culture. It's usually connected to emotion, feelings, and passion,Love in our culture leaves us feeling empty and disappointed. Love redefined God's way can transform your life.

Falling Apart...

“What do you do when you can't bear it anymore?…

do you wish your significant other did something differently?

 I can't bear this pain anymore. I don't know how I've been taking it. But I can't do it anymore. My heart aches and hurts so much that it consumes all coherent thoughts in my mind... All that I can think of is wanting to end this pain... I really cannot take it anymore...I don't feel sane or rational right now. I need to sit down and think. But I can't think without thoughts of you flooding my mind. My mind and thoughts are centered around you so tightly that there is no space even for thoughts of myself...what do I do?

a woman who has overcome her fear of her limitations

Untold Love Story

"She is so cute! 

Why is she so beautiful?

 Is it so that i am loving her. 

In every angle,

I find her no defect.

 Her eyes, her lips,

 her hair and most touchingly her voice....

gosh! it kills me. 

She has made my life.

 She is everything to me"

-

by Kinleywangchuk

It was really strange, they were holding hands

Slowly their friendship grew stronger and stronger but the heart of the boy gave new name to his friendship. He started loving her desperately and so...desperately!
Now, as we know, in every love story misunderstandings block the way, it too happen to his love story which was a tragedy.  Reaching somewhere, the boy had to make apologies for loving her, for not able to convince her with his love, and taking their relation into more than a friend but her reply made him more suspense. She said to him that she never heard the words and he never uttered to him and she was a big.........??? that black space at last was his curiosity. He could never ask what was it. He had no idea after that what he should be doing. He felt depressed and lonely. In the crowd also, he felt solitary, more over he would close his room door and get lost into his own world without saying a word with his friends. His friends on top never made an attempt to give him company with his sadness.She said "yes!...now I am realizing that he really loves me" followed she said, she is not going be in relation with anybody and that's forever.why is that? Is it that she has got another guy, or has she been betrayed by her true love in the past or she has got some other reason that even after realizing there is someone who really loves her and as we know true love is rare thing to achieve, she cannot except his love. Question mark with no answer.He got more depressed with his epilogue of the story turning into tragedy. Nothing was helping him and he kept on thinking what was there that he could not understand her or she didn't understand. But unlike other guys, he didn't go into drugs and all, doing that he thought it would make his love more cheap and rather he decided he would be strong and not to give up so easily. He said to himself he would meet her once personally and pour out his thoughts and questions.The first part of the epilogue has shown its color and now let us wait for the second part to show up. Let us see what is lying behind after his secret meeting with her.....lets wait and watch!!

In the crowd also, he felt solitary

long time ago in a very far away land...

it's absolutely impossible to make someone belong to us

A lot of you have been in the same position. The precious memory of that moment, I suppose it's become my way to relax in the midst of this whirlwind I'm living these days... Sandeep Sagar
How I wish for someone who'll spend with me, who'll tell me her problems, and I can tell her mine. .... I told her that I loved her, my sister. I told her that in that moment I loved her more than any other person.... the precious memory of that moment when she hold my hand seeing how much she already cares about me as her brother and how concerned she is about the important things in life. Now She's gone, still thinking about her everyday. And I know feelings was hurt and she can blame me.And now she's..Now she's far far away

so close; yet so far away